This is Me
SUMMARY OF ME
GOAL
To become a self-aware child
WHAT I ENJOY
"Trying" to write about my experience
PERSONALITY TYPE
Mediator (INFP-T)
ADULT JOB
Product Designer
Let me tell you a story.
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“Genius is only childhood recovered at will, childhood now gifted to express itself with the faculties of manhood & with the analytic mind that allows him to give order to the heap of unwittingly hoarded material.”
- Charles Baudelaire
EARLY CHILDHOOD
Since my childhood, I have always loved to create different things out of paper. I thought creatively and came up with solutions to the problems of a child. It’s always been a priority for me. “I have to play”, I used to say. It was my job. I used to create so much, that once, my brother wanted to make a deal of throwing away two of my old “projects” and trading it for one new because we simply didn’t have enough space to store all the things.
THE SPARK IS GONE
IT'S TIME TO TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY
As I was growing up, it felt like I was growing out of my creativity. I always loved to draw, and paint, I even used to write stories about different characters.
But as you’re approaching the milestone of adulthood, you’re expected to take things seriously. So that’s what I did. I went to university to study Computer Science, and I got even more lost. “Why is everybody else in the room having fun?”, I thought. I managed to finish 1,5 years but then couldn’t continue. There was something within me saying: “Hey, wake up. This is not for you.” And I am happy to have listened to that voice. I signed up to study graphic design, and after 3,5 years, I finished with a BA in Branding. I started working on digital experiences as a Product designer, and have continued ever since. My life became predictable.
IS A JOB ENOUGH TO FULFILL ONE CREATIVE?
Perhaps it depends. Even though I find my job fulfilling most of the time, I want to see more. Explore the world and explore myself together with it. So in 2023, I started my nomadic journey. As a confused creative full of emotions, you walk in different countries, and you wander around. You see a variety of people, places, and cultures, and you cannot contain all the emotions. What do I do with all of this?
REALIZATION
I slowly started coming to a realization that when we are born, we start possessing a series of personality traits. The ones we "should" keep in our adult life we lose and the ones we "should" let go of we keep. As we grow up, a combination of childish (rather immature personality traits) combined with a feeling of knowing everything while being lost in life, and we lose the desire to explore. That's when we know we become adults! Ta-da! Now, how do I fix that?
STRIVING TO BECOME A SELF-AWARE CHILD
My job was to play. I started to create so that I could bring it back. I want to become a self-aware child. The child that is honest with themselves, the child that listens, the child that is playful and loves to explore, the child that accepts and builds on top of their experience, the child that reflects. I create to get to know the world, and I create to understand the child within myself.
